After rewinding and playing back so many times to the points in my life when I had "friends" and was happy, it gets harder and harder to make out the faded shapes in the picture and even harder to pull out the voices over the white noise that took over forever ago (In a manner of speaking, what I mean is that my fond memories of certain times of my past are fading away) So, I've made up my mind. There's no use staying in the past, there's nothing left there, it's already gone, over, and done (Even when I first made this account, I could never get enough of that name, and, unfortunately, have been able to use it a lot in purposes other than identity.) There are still times when I would trade all of my tomorrows for one single yesterday with the people I thought were my friends, but that'll never happen. Hell, I ain't even gonna use tape anymore. No more rewinding! Why even have the tape rolling when you'll never have that moment back ever? The second you walk out of that door, the moment is gone, it's over, it's done. Sure, there's a picture, maybe even some audio or a video, (Or in my case, a failed school project on a CD and a commissioned piece of art (That still hags proudly on my wall and I do admire it every now and again)) But that exact chemistry of everything that was going on will never EVER happen again. Ask anyone that does things with "feel". You never get the same feeling twice. Once that moment is over, that's all it becomes, a moment. As for art, I have the skills of a pile of dirty diapers, I'm as creative as a cardboard box, and I have the talent of... I don't want to offend anything out there by comparing myself to it, so I ain't even gonna finish that. I'll probably never be truely gone (I honestly do believe I suffer from a multi personalty complex of some sort, and I guess it's pretty obvious that I'm not one of my optimistic ones right now) That's why I can't have friends. People who are friends with one Frank are not friends with most of the other Franks. Once they see the other ones, they leave. That, or they realize that I have no substance of any sort. Look at this whole shitload of words. "I I I I me me me me I I I I I'm I'm I'm. I'm a self centered bastard on top of it all! (Although, it's not like I've got anyone else to talk with or to or about anyways) So, to close it, A, No, I'm not making any more "art" B, I've come to terms that I'm destined to be a lonely person for the rest of my life, and C, I'm not gonna be living in the past anymore (Well, at least this variant of Frank isn't gonna be.) So, (Or until the next Frank cycles through) I'm Gone, Over, and Done. Have a nice day.